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Monday, November 16, 2015

a little bit of vulnerability

I have been so afraid to write about my beliefs, how important family and love and my spiritual practices are. I have been afraid to be vulnerable. 

Even when I think I've learned it all: how to communicate effectively, how to soften myself to others, how to stand up for myself, I am proven so wrong. 

I am afraid to love still. I am afraid to pull down all of my walls.

I am afraid to open myself up to Creator. I am afraid to open myself up to myself. To the power of the Universe. 

I am afraid to share what Creator, my Self, and Earth has taught me. What Goddess has taught me. 
God has taught me a lot, too. But I have had a tumultuous relationships with him. 

I don't want to be afraid anymore. I want to trust my own power, my own peace and ability to manifest everything I want and need. 

I want this blog to be a safe place for me to do that. So I am manifesting it to be so.

This is a place to discuss our relationships with our Gods and Goddesses, with magick, with other human beings. This is a place of love.

And that is it. 

Tuesday Morning Rambles

Every Tuesday morning I go for a walk around my neighborhood. It has become a wonderful weekly ritual and one I look forward to every Tuesday.

A few weeks ago on my walk, I came across a little path that led behind a few houses. It was a walking path that winds through one of the little neighborhoods. If one crosses a little bridge off the path, they will find this field, tucked away among the townhouses and a power plant.



Something about it called me in.
I found a little path among what I think are dried soybeans, and spent time in prayer, grounding myself there that morning.

Since then, I decided to come back every week.
The next week I went back, I was finishing up my grounding and a man and his dog were passing by on the path behind me.
He asked if I lived in the area and told me that if I crossed the bridge as I had been and went a little further down the path toward the energy plant, I would find myself in another field. If I gazed into the forest on the lefthand side, I might glimpse a little structure among the trees.

As one solitary type to another, he encouraged I check out the structure for myself; I might take some amazing photos there as the sun came up.

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The next week, I took the man's advice and found myself in a new field.

The sun was a bit dodgy, but I managed to snap this photo. I love the way the light plays across the field.

I walked slowly along, not wanting to miss what I was looking for (especially since I wasn't exactly sure what that was).

Then I saw it.
It looked like a ramshackle little tree house, hand-built and across a little stream.

I did attempt to cross the stream on a fallen tree trunk...but let's skip that part. I got a little scared and ended up finding a shallow bit to pick my way across instead. ;)

Once I got across, I was greeted by a strange and somewhat eerie feeling. Like this place was built to host hushed conversations and intimate moments between friends.


There were two little computer chairs sitting out front. I passed them by and crossed under the supporting branch to climb up into the little treehouse.






There was something so conflicted and adolescent about the place. It made me a little sad that I didn't have this sort of a place when I was younger.

But it also got me to thinking that I can surely have a Safe Haven now. It is something I know everyone searches for, that I've been searching for for years and years.


I can manifest that Safe Haven for myself. I can manifest it through deep breathing, through yoga, through meditation, through time in nature and time spent with Creator.

I can manifest a Safe Haven through healthy relationships, through spending time with those who encourage positivity and productivity, through time spent in uplifting atmospheres and doing what I love.
How amazing is that?? 

But I can also go back to this ramshackle little tree house and clean it up a bit. Get it back to being a bit cleaner so that anyone who might know of it can carry some peace in knowing that it is there for them

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I know how important a Safe Haven is and I hope this blog can be a little bit of one for me. For anyone reading this.



Tuesday, November 10, 2015

A Long Time Coming...

Happy Fall Friday to All!

I realize I fell off the blogwagon this year. 2015 has been an interesting year so far and one not exactly rife with free time. (Or perhaps too rife with Netflix...?)

That being said, there is really something about this time of year that calls me home to what it is I truly want to do: What I WANT to do!

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I graduated university in May of this year, 2015. I have a diploma in hand (well, okay, not really. I haven't picked it up yet...) and I'm an unreal amount of money in debt.

It does indeed feel good to have accomplished something I've worked so hard at doing. But don't let anyone deceive you - just because you have donned a cap and gown and walked across a stage, I would venture to guess that you won't feel any more "whole".

I'm not trying to be defeatist! Honestly. Like, I said, I've been in college for a long time and it feels so good to be finished, to have a accomplished a goal!

But. As much as I love being able to say I am an English major, and as much as I actually did enjoy my classes and love some of my professors, I am interested in a vast array of other things! I think you all know this and can understand!

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So, go with me on a story, please! 

I love being vegan and I never regret my decision. 

However, occasionally I find myself out and cannot find anything to snack on! I especially love coffeeshops and Lawrence has a ton of really cool, locally owned places. The coffee beans are almost always locally roasted and there is always a tasty treat in the case that melds amazingly with your chosen latte. 

The thing that really sucked when I went vegan though, is that I could never find a snack to go with my coffee!  

One day I thought - wait, I love to bake. Why the heck am I not making and selling my own vegan tasties?? 

So, after knocking the idea around a bit, I did it. 

That's right. I printed up little price lists of my favorite baked goodies and took them to various coffee shops around town.
In some I found I faced a lot of ego, in some I found disorganized interest (this is the most prevalent).

In one, I managed to find a good partner who is working with me and doing a fabulous job at selling my, MY, desserts! (It's still crazy to say that!!)

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So, the moral of the story is, DO IT. 
Whatever it is that you feel in your heart is something you want to try, go for it! 

It doesn't have to last forever, it just has to be something that you feel you would really enjoy.

Another note: if at first you don't succeed, try try again! 
Every fun new foundation that you lay doesn't have to lead to a cathedral. All that matters is that you go for it! 

Please let me know if there is something you've been dying to try but have been too afraid to. 
Or have you made the move recently to try something new?